For me to live my passion, I have to be rigorously honest with myself.
To do this I have to see things the way they are, not just the way I want them to be.
I’m not sure any one can see things the way they are. We always find ways to project our own expectations on life. Maybe at best we can peal away some of the layers of illusion and personal expectations.
Maybe if we can peal away a few layers we can see what motivates some of our actions. We can see the emotions behind our thoughts and actions…the emotions that trigger our thoughts, actions, and the words that come out of our mouth.
One of the emotions that motivates me is anger. Anger seems to come in many flavors and disguises.
When I get angry or I notice another person’s anger, two quotes come to mind.
These quotes remind me of the role that anger plays in my life.
The first quote comes from the Course in Miracles:
Lesson 5: “I am never upset for the reason I think.”
For me this is a very powerful lesson. The other quote is from Aristotle:
“Everybody can get angry – that’s easy. But getting angry at the right person, with the right intensity, at the right time, for the right reason and in the right way – that’s hard.”
For me, these two quotes act like a giant mirror. They force me to look inside myself. They remind me that the cause of my anger is not outside of me. The cause is inside of me.
When I get angry I try to remember that “I am not angry at ____ for the reason I think” and I try to notice how my current anger relates to the current person and situation.
I have to be willing to ask questions like:
- Am I getting mad at this person because of something that happened years ago?
- Is my anger at a level 10 and the situation only calls for a level 2 response?
When I feel anger wash over me I try to remember I am not this anger and I try to dig deeper. I try to find out what is behind this anger?
Is this easy? No.
Do I succeed all the time? No.
Is it worth it? Yes.
“Love is what we are born with. Fear is what we learn. The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and prejudices and the acceptance of love back in our hearts. Love is the essential reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in ourselves and others, is the meaning of life. Meaning does not lie in things. Meaning lies in us.”
— Excerpted from A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles